is there any hope left in me?

but you did

im calling

can anybody see me?

can anybody hear me?

what if i don't exist?

i wish i didn't care

i wish i wasn't lost

i wish it didn't matter

i wish i could sleep at night without you on my mind

i wish i could just enjoy life

i wish you were here

i wish i was there

i wish i meant it

i wish you meant it

i wish you missed me

i wish i lived somewhere else

i wish i was different

i wish i was pretty

i wish i was loving

i wish i was talented

i wish i could sing better

i wish i could write music

i wish i wasn't invisible

i wish i wish i wish

have a wonderful day

merry christmas to those who celebrate it.

whats happening

you're in & out of my mind

crazy

train wreck (me)

this cant be right

i cant be right

i just want to

shut the world out

away

get up

so high

im up

feeling alive

i can touch the sky

and kiss the stars

tick tock

the thought of being hurt

by the same thing

all over again

im not afraid of trying it again

but i dont want to get hurt

i dont want to get hurt

in recovery

in confusion

in the allusion

in constellations

inspired

where'd you go?

most of us are mislead

and uninformed about whats happening or whats going to happen

put in the sense that we are all

like alice

alice in wonderland

skinny loves and thoughts

skinny ankles and wrists

with 100 stories to tell

but no where to go

you make your self to be the person you accept

but we still manage to never figure out

who we are

like a fractured bone not broken

a twisted painting but perfectly painted

a paper cut that cuts deep but manages to stay sweet

so imperfect

so demented

so sore

yet so clean

just hang

you interlope in all aspects of every corner of my thoughts and mind

every inch of my soul

in constant motion

i over think

the simple things

you're so sweet

but you complex me

and my thoughts and my already tangled mind

i hang from you

like a loose thin thread

one in which you do not see

and somehow that completes me

tomorrows a new day

wait for the skies to change

and breathe it in

craving

reality.

i think i can make it without you

i think i can

it was in you

"& when i meet you, it felt like everything fell into place. it was a challenge, it was a ride, it was hard, but i found you

& i found my self to"

-crystal.

age is just a number

you're wise

beyond your years

but i dont care

i dont care

i dont care

black&blue

that soul

the one that i have spend

all my time searching for

that non-existing soul

a fairytale

in my head

every story starts with a

Once Upon A Time

it all happened so fast

& when i lost you

i didn't really know i would lose myself to

unknown

Be Somebody - KOL

because it reminds me of the rush

and the ride to no where

rushed

& when she sings and when she talks

its as if

i can hear her whisper them to my soul

my bones shiver

they s h i v e r

she doesn't have a clue

so i'll just sing her a song or maybe two

frost

i want to i n s p i r e people

my soul turns purple when i am with you

dark lies

i dont know what im doing or who im going to be

but i know that i want to be anywhere but here

and i know i dont want to be this.

take me to a place where everything is light & everyday the skies are different

get me out of here

so i can show the right people the side of me no one here sees

dare me

baby girl

you're way to young

to feel & be

this e m p t y

(thats all he said)

mama once told me to:

december

feels so wrong

you are

a[maze]ing

i am in a different world (inmydreams)

in my dreams i feel alive

i feel the color running through my veins

i fell in love

i fell apart

i held your hand and touched your lips

i sang along to every tune

i painted pictures of something i never knew

in my dreams

its all in my dreams

in my head

& how can i remember

the memories that never happened

reality is a buzz kill

what if?

deep down

one of those days where

i look in the mirror and all i want to do it break the glass

and never look in the mirror ever again

why cant mirrors only show whats on the inside?

take a step

i need change

in every form of way

in a simple manner

i just need it

i need change.

we all have flaws

accept it

patience

everything will be fine

& everything will be okay

heart breaking

even the winter breeze cant satisfy me

its time

you were loved

and you will be missed

grave

you kneel down on your knees

this is your last goodbye

this is the last kiss

all black

& when its cut it feels deep

& when its broken it might seem shattered

& when its stabbed its stays there

it feels pain

she feels pain

he feels pain

a room filled with pain

from jules

sending love to the uk

i wish

& all my life

my hands will search for yours

empty

oh how i love the feeling

of sweet nothing

just nothing

spill open

thin thin walls

theyre thinner than you think

the word is gonna get out

its gonna get out

somewhere far away

with white petals

and weightless feathers

we live in this beautiful world

yes we do

just me and you

f l o a t i n g

finding herself

this is my story

not

yours

they really do

hang in there

somewhere along the way

things DO get better

sometimes i love you is just not enough

dont h8

people find it so hard to love

they force themselves to find something

to hate

they force them selves to find a way to bring you down

they love to see you hurt

the love to see you break

they love to see you burn

one day theyre gonna drown in their own flames

that bad

just break down

& cry

wont heal

my heart hurts

it feels broken

it feels bruised

it feels pain

please

i just dont want to feel pain anymore

i just want to feel alive

i really do

its cold outside baby

please stay

the sweet smell of november

everything beautiful reminds me of you

june

but all she will ever do is

push push push push me away

sometimes

i cant

what more can i do

what more can i say

i cant just walk away

i mean it

i would die for you

thats exactly how much you mean to me..

you changed my life

& everyday before i go to bed

i thank you

and you

and you

i'm grateful

i love you all

yes it's a great gift

some people just

exist

once upon a time

it felt like

she was saying the saddest story ever

looking right into her eyes

was like the saddest love story

ever

oh the sweet taste of new york

maybe

he was my escape and sometimes that can feel an awful lot like love.

follow

everyone can dream

everyone needs dreams

youre never 2 old

and never 2 young

i just want to be your friend

& i'll sing my heart out

& i'll cry my heart out

i'll write you a song

& if i draw a tear will that make things clear?

then you can see whats really hurting me?

you're my only song

my master symphony

you're the only one worth crying for

i'll help you

i'll hold you

i'll want you

i'll give you love

i need your love

infinity

a small part of you will always

always

always

be with me.

heartaches and heart breaks

ships sink and eyes blink

50 bullets she misses

for a thousand sweet kisses

like a feather

id like to float away

& im giving up on you

like you gave up on me

some kind of love.

deep

i miss looking into your eyes

that feeling my heart gets when i look at them

i miss that feeling

i miss those eyes.

let me haunt you

in your dreams where you go

let me be your ghost

ill be there to keep you safe

and scare away everything

that needs to be replaced

maps

along with a tired self

along with being always lost

along with everything

along with my tired tired soul

i feel totally in control

and i dont know where to go..

that feeling

its like my mind is floating in some other galaxy

taking a trip along and in between the stars

im here physically but

my mind, body &soul are not

and it feels like

i'm in peace, just hovering

sweetly released

her silent cry for help

listen to her

its one big canvas

life = art

(paint freely)

you can always trust me

open up to someone about something

or write it down

& set it free

dont fool yourself

all your pluses add up

to nothing.

thats alot of people

look closer

deeper

d e e p

theres good in everyone

winter;summer;spring;fall

& its sad to say

i watched you change with the seasons

tag you're it

every rose has its thorns

tonight all i want to do is;

get lost in white petals

music for your soul to dance 2

Sia - Never Gonna Leave Me

you touched my heart and then gave me yours

dont make me wait

just because you know i will

goodbye

i know we wont ever

say hello again

and it kills me

it k i l l s me everyday..

i like books

i still like to think that i live my life through someone else's story

i am always afraid to write my own

i pretend that i am happy everyday & sometimes it works

i even fool myself

morning light

own it

wake up

its a new day

triangle

i cant stop thinking about him

&

he cant stop thinking about her

give me a break

so tired of thinking about him

& so tired of thinking about her

long days

midnight coffee

end of one thing

everythings changing

things are coming and going

time

is precious

missing

forgetting

& regretting

moving on & letting go

all apart of growing up

a gift 4you

little boxes tied with ribbons

lets fly away

like a tattoo

something you cant remove

theres alway something permanent in our lives
a l w a ys

say goodbye say hello

get ready for a rocky end
& a beautiful beginning

dont forget

youre beautiful

always remember

someone

out there loves you

like magic

i dont bite

well okay maybe sometimes

advice:

dont stereotype

its time to move on

here i come paris

put aside everything

i know what i want to be& what i want to do

this is what im going to focus my everything 4

this is who i want to be

this is me trying to find me

brush it off&enjoy

i dont think ill every be good enough 

for 

anyone 

& that scares me 

they fill your head

youre thoughts get lost in all the chaos

but they always find their way back

ill always come back

& you'll always creep back

its a cycle

comeback

its always the little things that i miss the most. 

youre better than them

dont let anyone bring you down 

smile & walk away 

try it.

we're getting closer

i just need closure 

here you go

i can do whatever i want

sometimes 

late at night 

it h i t s me 

this is my life. 

i can be whoever i want to be 

no one can control me but me

tick tock

i'll wait for you to come around 

because i know if you were me 

you'd wait 2

dont be afraid

its always worth asking 

someone to stay 

you never know the answer 

might be y e s.

just white

& then one day 

you'll find yourself in this room 

with this state of mind 

you'll feel free 

but you'll be trapped 

& you realize 

you're lost in white petals 

white rose petals 

and you sink in.. 

& you embrace this state of mind. 

& you'll never want it to fade away

im hiding 

come find me

zzz there's my splash

bold bright light

we wont fade 

we both know it 

just like the stars 

we're both here 

to stay 

without you its dead

your like the smoke to my cigarette 

be careful

dont care so much for one person 

you'll forget about yourself 

love vs obsession 

call me miss dont care. 

fast

& its a splash 

a beautiful splash of color 

like a rainbow 

wonderful color s p l a s h 

feel

im just an ordinary girl 

really 

not a waste of time

didnt know where i was 

i found my way 

and im on the perfect path 

a new light 

call me luxe 

where are you going with this?

missing everything 

but loving my new everything 

i am miss nothing 

wanting everything 

hold onto to something 

letting go of one thing

sunset snacks

from the distance

my break

my escape 

my adventure 

somewhere to take my mind off everything.

my place& space

its been a while 

i've been missing 

& sinking in the beautiful blend 

around you

& everything in me came back to life. 

just for a second..

please remember me.

wake up & clear your mind.

i've never felt so drained 

& then in the aftermath 

i've never felt so alive. 

long nights

those clouded eyes 

make them rain

meet summer

tmrw mornin

i want you tangled in my s h e e t s 

(underthesheets)

time to realize

if you just stop

& look around you. 

you will see that 

this life all around you. 

is amazing

is beautiful 

is wonderful 

loud lights long nights

"hold me dont let me fall"

"dont let me fall"

breathe in, hang tight, hold my hand. 

i wont let you fall 

i promise i wont let you fall 

like lucy.

you remind of the girl 

with kaleidoscope eyes 

everything else is old.

new town

new vibe

new atmosphere

new people

new color

new glitter

new keys

new doors

new weather

new car

new house

new clothes

new me

where ?

nothing left to say
& nothing in my way.

music?

Make Me Wanna Die - The Pretty Reckless

(i had opportunities 4 eternity&i could belong to the night)

perfect sun - breathe it in

thanx 4the phone call

dont worry

all this isnt real.

what you feel

can never be real.

far away at the break of day

not yours 

and not mine 

ours 

this is our escape. 

welcome

nothing really matters 

& no one really wins.

hippie

in this room 

this place 

that garden 

yes this is where i meet you. 

now all i want to do is 

forget you. 

cotton candy sweet

her voice

sweet

& melancholy

a perfect ring to it

a voice that fills you with hope.

dont mind if you show it

broken 

left there 

cold and broken 

a beauty 

a fairy-tale princess 

broken 

How?

Why?

don't cry 

he should've known you were shy 

don't worry 

shattered like a perfect piece of glass 

sharp edges 

but easily fixed 

why'd you leave her there 

Beautifully broken?

once you turn black theres no going back

2show you i care

even when we part 

she will always have 

a place in my heart. 

no matter what. 

i wish i could call you & tell you i care 

but will you listen?

or 

will you just stand there?

(i dont think you'll listen. i wish you did)

but optimism is powerful

all black phase 

yes i feel that way 

i have gotten to the point. 

tired

i said i'm sorry

& i said i'll try

im sure that

this loneliness is 

Temporary 

you do something to me that i cant explain 

so would i be completely out of line to say: 

"i miss you" 

mislead

• im pushing you away because i cant let you stay. 

look.

dont worry you'll be okay

reckless 

hopeless dreamer 

hold on

be strong 

goodbye

hello hello 

miss me?

i miss you

i think about you all the time. 

only with you

i try to make myself so vague 

but with you 

im as clear as 

shiny glass.

welcome

i know you're here 

i wake up 

& i know i can feel you 

like i did once before when you were around. 

i can feel your presence 

i really can 

i wish i wish i wish

you are here.

late night phone calls 

so wheres my medication ?

its unhealthy exactly how much i think of you.

something about you

the way you make me feel 

is so unreal 

its something that is not meant to be hidden 

the way you make me feel 

i'm convinced

i'll never be her 

& i'll never be like her 

maybe thats why you gave up on me. 

because all your life your going to look for someone 

exactly like her. 

& you thought that girl was me. 

but i am me. 

i am not her. 

im sorry to let you down. 

away a w a y

nothing left 2 say 

i blew you away 

your just another sparkle 

another pretty little grain.

i need 2find one.

will you be my muse?

ive been looking for one. 

& i found you. 

be my muse 

i'd like a muse. 

overover

a rush of something. 

a rush of something powerful 

its a rush 

i feel it creeping up my veins 

one by one.

we all relate to one another 

& we all intertwine with eachother. 

we all come together. 

suited up.

your curls 

    & your voice 

think

dont assume things 

please 

ask be4 you do. 

smile, its gonna be a good day

i wont change.

like it or leave it 

i dont care 

this is who i am. 

lesson learned

take control of your own life

sometimes peoples advice

is not what you need

and not the right way to the paths you want to take

take the advice that feels right

& dont listen to one person

if somethings wrong

if what your getting is not what you like

then change what youre doing

& find someone

who will like you

for who you are.

goodmorning

brush it off & smile

todays a new day 

yesterdays the past 

smile & carry on 

remember to be like the stars 

& to always shine. 

look it up

to be in need or want:

necessary 

leave it out.

i was on the edge 

but i think i'm 

breaking down 

missing

i need you here with me 

i really need you 

i need you 

please 

call me. 

hey can you

just leave me alone 

with my thoughts 

stressful nights

a good cry 

will always help 

a good cry. 

your stardust is all i have left of you

no one's behind me.

help me 

i'm lost 

help me

come look for me 

im lost 

i run cause deep down inside 

i want to be chased 

come look 4 me. 

come follow me

i am i n v i s i b l e

if i cant be beautiful 

i'd like to feel invisible 

i feel invisible 

up in the sky

i look up at the sky 

the sky thats filled with diamonds 

*sigh*

i wonder 

are you somewhere out there 

looking at the same sparkles 

the full moon fools me & whispers to me 

"he is thinking of you 2darling i can see him, i can read him"

tell her what she wants to hear

tell her she's worth it 

she deserves it 

because she is 

jigsaw

there's this piece of you thats always

with me

its with me

its around me

its in everywhere i go

& everything i see.

new perspectives? new friends?

it would be nice to meet new people

i need a good change

i need good vibes

2late

"never say goodbye because saying goodbye means going away & going away means forgetting"

-peter pan 

sand kissed farewell

& tonight she's taking chances, she's gonna take a chance 

making memories out of what she has left.

embracing the last piece of presence she will ever have of 

him 

she will not forget today

she will not forget 

one perfect memory 

of her last day with him

she will not forget

i guarantee 

she will not forget 

because she has to leave it all behind 

she has to leave all of this behind 

one last day with the full moon 

reflecting on the beach 

she will never forget this&him.

shes leaving on a monday.

suddenly between 

tears 

sheets 

and lashes 

i am reminded of why i dont do this:

i fall too quickly 

i dont want you to forget me 

when you leave 

when your gone 

will you write?

or will you call? 

i need a rainy day 

4rayne

I don’t know what I should like to say: I love you. You are beautiful. Never leave me. 

It seems I hear all of this and yet he says only one word,

my name

or something 

or his laughter 

i only hear one thing

and I realize I have never heard him say it this way before;

because that way feels like a way in which 

he has always been saying. 

& i stop and i understand 

it was never & never will be 

goodbye is enough 

the last thing was 

“Goodbye,” I whispered at last, when it no longer matters, and there is no one to hear it 

but the window.

wishes

i wish i could tell you 

i wish i could tell you

i wish i could tell you 

i wish i could tell you

spin around & loose control of your buttons

pick up

pass me the phone 

its time for a conversation 

I am a metaphor 

help?

without you i feel:

small 

insignificant 

cold 

& incredibly lonely 

with you i feel:

i feel alive 

important 

happy 

joyful 

but still incredibly lonely 

it doesnt make any sense 

i will cherish you

you're the best thing i never knew i needed 

because everything seems right

my only relief is to sleep. when i’m sleeping, i’m not sad, i’m not angry, i’m not lonely, i’m nothing.

soft music for your heart&soul

Dream - Priscilla Ahn 

the s t a r s smiled down on me

god answered in silent reverie. 

i said a prayer and fell asleep. 

goodnight

whatever i want it to be.

love can be whatever i want it to be

no one can tell me 

what love feels like and how and when to love

love is whatever i think it is 

and what i want it to be 

not what you tell me it is supposed to be.

 

my feelings 

not yours 

i love 

you dont. 

hiiii

You amaze me 

you inspire me 

you make me 

you can break me 

you move me 

you love me 

& i do 2

im here, always.

my world revolves around your soul. 

plastic spoons 

lets collect spoons. 

instant

i swear baby

I'M READY TO FALL 

im ready. 

cherish

the simple things get the best of me.

talk is cheap

their words mean

n o t h i n g

Every day I have the urge to talk to you, but then I don’t, reminding myself that if you wanted to talk to me

you would. 

at all at all

"i dance with myself, i drink myself down. Found people to love, left people to drown. I'm not scared to jump, I'm not scared to fall. If there was nowhere to land i wouldn't be scared at all"

-florence+the machine 

i could feel my eyes turning into dust.

only.

Only love makes you run around in the rain without feeling cold.

without shivering 

without feeling like you're freezing 

Only love numbs you out like that 

only love 

& only love still lets you feel every fucking cell in your body.

it feels up the empty spaces inside

if that is what a dream is supposed to do 

then i dream of being with you 

(& they make you feel whole)

Accro à tes sens, je frise l’effervescence

translate:

hooked on your senses, im on the verge of turmoil. 

hi im a

wallflower 

lets be wallflower friends?

i feel as if

i dont mean anything to anyone anymore. 

whatever this is

just

TRUST

its always better

to keep to yourself

(people are people)

oh my

his smile
his laugh
his smile

he makes my heart flutter
and his smile makes my day

("everytime you smile i smile")

only

just thoughts

just a txt away

we found a way to communicate

dont let that go

to loose the way

really

don't leave when i push you away, that's when i need you the most.

whats going on?

this cant be happening

i cant keep on like this

i promise 

i didnt do anything wrong.. 

very very

new tunes 4your soul.

Frou Frou - Let Go

so let go , yeah let go. 

just get in 

oh its amazing here 

it's alright 

cause there's beauty in the breakd o  w n 

bend & break

it was all a big mistake 

i need to feel you.

&your breeze

itsnogame.

she always falls inlove way 2 fast, maybe because she has so much love to give?

feel

i love you. 

today you are loved. 

when you read this, know that there is one person who loves you. 

smile :) 

heeeeeeey

dont underestimate her 

shes not me.. 

please

the red light, turns green after a while 

& your off

takecare, miss me 

cause i know ill miss you

it hit me hard

i so didnt see this coming. 

ill miss you.

just stay please stay. 

you were right

people always leave. 

thank you god.

my 11:11 wish last night 

was grey skies 

rain 

& a conversation with you. 

grey skies check

rain check 

you check 

hold on 2 wtv you have left.

we all wait for something 

everyone waits 

everything will be alright

talk to me.. 

i told you before and ill tell you now 

im your person. 

remember

paper hearts dont always land

 where you want them 2. 

may was never my month

oh well 

Hello May 

lets hope you come by faster than april. 

april was long. 

april wasn't my month. 

bassically april sucked. 

over

you fell for the wrong guy. 

he screwed you over. 

and youre still falling for him 

just let it go 

let him go 

cause all he's gonna do is

hurt you

over and over and over 

again. 

waiting 4you

let me do it on my own.

who i am 

is for me to figure out on my own. 

all alone. 

solo 

but along the roads

ill meet people 

exchange vibes. 

places&faces&spaces. 

stupid.

im doing so good in pretending to be fine 

and pretending to be okay 

like everythings going along well 

that im actually believing myself. 

i need time

everything is not okay 

everything is just getting way too exhausting 

learning things that i am not one bit interested about 

loving someone is exhausting 

l i f e is exhausting 

& thinking or actually losing someone?

thats the most exhausting thing. 

perfection is your flaw. 

what you potentially did not do to me. 

hurt me more. 

wont last 4ever.

why all these secrets 

we dont need them 

i dont need them 

my secrets 

my secretkeeper

im done with secrets & im done with you darling. 

take a walk down venice beach