threads & chains

he wore me around his wrist 

and i wore him around my neck

i feel the beat, i feel the heat. i feel your wind.

28th

08- you meet her 

09- you lost her 

09- coldplay 

10- blue based 

thank you thank you thank you.

for the first time in a long time. 

i felt content

so umm

f:so you guys are like friends?

a:obviously 

f:you guys close or what 

a: ya we are, were like this;

(yah we're that tight)

blue

you & i 

agreed on a 15 minute junction.

it turned out to be 2hours of perfection. 

at its best 

we need to get together more, ill help you & you help me. 

we make great art together 

haych. 

flashes.

i need a bunch of crazy people and my camera.

wheres the good? the palm tree? joy? & the boys. 

i'd like to see you soon. 

& i need to take pictures. 

& i need memories. 

hey secret keeper

you said you'd never let me go?

id like to run. 

id like a box

id like to connect 

id like a friend. 

& please let me fly away.

ill be there for you. 

just know that ill catch you when you fall. 

& i will love you. 

i do love you 

im tired of loving you. 

i need to be set free. 

& float effortlessly 

i dont want to let you go. 

but i have to.

id like to fly out of this cage, because cages are meant to trap.

grey skies.

look outside & think of me

think of me when there's rain 

when droplets fall from the sky in the middle of the spring. 

i know what this is. 

i feel it. 

i feel you. 

(sunday is not far away)

to:

Wed, March 25, 2009

           18:49

hey! how have you been? i havnt seen you in a while, miss you...... :( 

from: 

its been a year.

(do you still miss me, i miss what we were)

music from ish.

Feel it in my bones - Tiesto ft. Tegan & Sara 

i cant control.

i feel you in my bones. 

you're knocking on my windows 

like now.

& the sad part about it

is that i know that i cant have you. 

(i always knew)

everything is better in black & white

(the black keys never looked so beautiful) 

this song is 4you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a3Jfdnci_-o

save me i'm lost 

save me from being confused 

i need saving. 

i thought there was more:

more to us. 

more than just a few incounters. 

i was willing to give you all i have inside. 

when i tell you i miss you, i meant it. 

i wont let you down. 

you told me to wait and see. 

i waited 

and waited

and sadly im still waiting. 

i dont want to let you, dont let me slip into your past. 

i thought we were going to paint a world of our own. 

(every hello ends with a goodbye?)

pure white-silence is everything

don't think.

Try to feel me 

Come over & breathe me.

prettyboy & insecurelittlegirl

(somewhere between magic & tragic) 

today today today

this never felt so 

perfect & wonderful. 

it felt like i was kissing the lipless, kissing the life of something thats dead. 

i think it's back 

what we once never had. 

magic. 

magic in the name of us. 

(it was only a kiss it was only a kiss)

to you it was only a kiss.

to me it was a kiss.

i know it means nothing to you.

but it means something to me.

up in the sky

look at all those stars 

the constellations 

up there in the sky 

dont they look the same?

they're still the same from last week. 

from last year. 

they're the same: when we were kids & even when we weren't born. 

and in about 100 years. 

they'll still be there. 

but no one will know who we are. 

but let me tell you this:

they'll know those same stars. 

agenda marked

it was all planed out for;

me & you. 

now its planed out for you & her. 

and i thrown in the back with them. 

i wanted me&you. 

i needed you&i. 

(why?why?why?)

shiny

walk away and say goodbye.

because ive given you a chance. 

& you didnt embrace it. 

so goodbye my friend. 

& when you want to say hello again. 

be the person i liked, the person i miss and not the person who stands before me & sits next to me. 

(i dont mind it, i dont mind it all) 

not you

at the end of the day

all she needs to be is

h e r self

tonight i'll be with the light.

music for your heart, soul, mind and ears.

i will sing this alone. 

by the couch that reminds you of cory. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch#!v=jXG0YMv5Fvk&feature=related

(hometown glory in my head)

20-1-10

drizzle 

d o w n

rain 

fill my body 

with such pain 

this desire 

this hopeless world 

drizzle 

down rain 

drizzle down on me 

refrain. 

leave your umberlla at the door 

walk with me 

on the beach at the shoor 

wrap me 

drizzle 

drops and drops 

my hopeless desire 

and my never coming euphoria 

my love that'll never be. 

dazzle 

me with your eyes & stardust 

drizzle 

drops

of rain 

from the sky 

oh what a powerful sky 

fall 

fall 

fall 

fall on me 

(ive given up, and the rain isnt as exciting as it was before you were in my world)

lost

a color with a scent.

cinnamon 

vanilla crisp. 

coconut. 

strawberry 

jasmine 

(ah like paradise)