is there any hope left in me?

but you did

im calling

can anybody see me?

can anybody hear me?

what if i don't exist?

i wish i didn't care

i wish i wasn't lost

i wish it didn't matter

i wish i could sleep at night without you on my mind

i wish i could just enjoy life

i wish you were here

i wish i was there

i wish i meant it

i wish you meant it

i wish you missed me

i wish i lived somewhere else

i wish i was different

i wish i was pretty

i wish i was loving

i wish i was talented

i wish i could sing better

i wish i could write music

i wish i wasn't invisible

i wish i wish i wish

have a wonderful day

merry christmas to those who celebrate it.

whats happening

you're in & out of my mind

crazy

train wreck (me)

this cant be right

i cant be right

i just want to

shut the world out

away

get up

so high

im up

feeling alive

i can touch the sky

and kiss the stars

tick tock

the thought of being hurt

by the same thing

all over again

im not afraid of trying it again

but i dont want to get hurt

i dont want to get hurt

in recovery

in confusion

in the allusion

in constellations

inspired

where'd you go?

most of us are mislead

and uninformed about whats happening or whats going to happen

put in the sense that we are all

like alice

alice in wonderland

skinny loves and thoughts

skinny ankles and wrists

with 100 stories to tell

but no where to go

you make your self to be the person you accept

but we still manage to never figure out

who we are

like a fractured bone not broken

a twisted painting but perfectly painted

a paper cut that cuts deep but manages to stay sweet

so imperfect

so demented

so sore

yet so clean

just hang

you interlope in all aspects of every corner of my thoughts and mind

every inch of my soul

in constant motion

i over think

the simple things

you're so sweet

but you complex me

and my thoughts and my already tangled mind

i hang from you

like a loose thin thread

one in which you do not see

and somehow that completes me

tomorrows a new day

wait for the skies to change

and breathe it in

craving

reality.

i think i can make it without you

i think i can

it was in you

"& when i meet you, it felt like everything fell into place. it was a challenge, it was a ride, it was hard, but i found you

& i found my self to"

-crystal.

age is just a number

you're wise

beyond your years

but i dont care

i dont care

i dont care

black&blue

that soul

the one that i have spend

all my time searching for

that non-existing soul

a fairytale

in my head

every story starts with a

Once Upon A Time

it all happened so fast

& when i lost you

i didn't really know i would lose myself to

unknown

Be Somebody - KOL

because it reminds me of the rush

and the ride to no where

rushed

& when she sings and when she talks

its as if

i can hear her whisper them to my soul

my bones shiver

they s h i v e r

she doesn't have a clue

so i'll just sing her a song or maybe two

frost

i want to i n s p i r e people

my soul turns purple when i am with you

dark lies

i dont know what im doing or who im going to be

but i know that i want to be anywhere but here

and i know i dont want to be this.

take me to a place where everything is light & everyday the skies are different

get me out of here

so i can show the right people the side of me no one here sees

dare me

baby girl

you're way to young

to feel & be

this e m p t y

(thats all he said)

mama once told me to:

december

feels so wrong