im sure you remember

i believe in equality
but i dont believe in you


&her

im here to stay

it kills me
you werent mine
nor will you ever be

you spend all these minutes
on her
like she put the stars in the sky
when all she does it take them all
and keep them with her

you dont get it
do  you?
your weakness
is killing me

i gave it all
i gave you all
she gave you a kiss
and a sweet word
and you gave her the world
and a love bite

it kills me
it kills me to see that you wouldn't go that extra mile for me 

im just as weak but im not as blind.

the bittersweet
& the inbetween
open more than just your heart
spill out your(thoughts)
sing to me
with me
linger around my soul
and i feel your breaths all around my torso
ill hold you forever

i dont know what more
just open up
to me
with me
youll be all mine
and ill be all yours
 -infinite-

you cant feel this way forever

whatever this is

whatever i think this is

whatever we thought this was
hasn't turned out,
pieces by pieces
we're falling
down
down
d o w n

i think i found something,
i have nothing left
i loved you the most
you (most)

in the clouds i'm high up, with myself
you cant touch me
dont touch me
piece by piece
the ripple when the pebble hits the water, the white tips
seducing my feet
i can hear it
you said you never loved me
& i know i never will

head in the sea
i dont think there's ever going to be
a you
& me..

ahead

open me up
let me sing for you
all thats left of me

forever maybe
i lied when i said never
i dont get whats wrong with the picture

let me sing where theres an echo
let me listen
soul thirst
i need you

take as long as you like

you changed everything

rootless tree - damien rice 

its nothing to you and if you hate me, then hate me so good that you can let me out 

i dare you not to4get me

you  are
intoxicating

i want this

& ill run
& ill sacrifice
& when i tell you ill try
i mean it

i will
& ill fight
& ill cry
& ill fall
& when i tell you i cant
i hope you'll understand

ill try
& ill sacrifice
with you ill take tiny steps
but for you ill take leaps
holding your hand

& ill r u n
carefree
breaking through
running dry
&
outpouring

this is me
for you
i gave you me
i gave you myself
& more

then you took me away
& for that ill sacrifice
blood for blood

simply: i just want you

so self-destructive

im not good

im not healthy

for you

for myself

recognize me

home - daughter

burnt out flames should never re-ignite

soul kiss

break my addictions

& be my cigarette

roll it up

kill it off

take it away

with every grip

i grow more obsessed

(my valium)

every sound & reverb

every raw detail your voice projects

into me

out of lust

i want to refine you in white

maybe pink

and pop you like a pill

take you when i'm down

or on magic hill

so tell me, about myself.

the girl who visions ripping her self to pieces at a sight of a mirror

the girl who will die of insecurity

the girl sitting next to you

the girl who's diagnosed & patiently waiting for a cure

the girl by the phone

the sister that tries to create a satisfying impression

the daughter that hides depression

the student that struggles

the poet that writes about her pain

the teenager thats bottling up her tears

the stranger that walks by, with suicide crossing her mind

the one who is alone

the person living in shame

the one who's only asking for someone

to care.

i can't

but i fell in love

with the wrong person

at the wrong time

& as he left

he took it

he forgot to leave my heart behind

i told you; i'm not good enough

its friday

heavy dose of nicotine - pain killers - empty journals