Tuesday, December 28, 2010

is there any hope left in me?

but you did

im calling

can anybody see me?
can anybody hear me?

what if i don't exist?

i wish i didn't care
i wish i wasn't lost
i wish it didn't matter
i wish i could sleep at night without you on my mind
i wish i could just enjoy life
i wish you were here
i wish i was there
i wish i meant it
i wish you meant it
i wish you missed me
i wish i lived somewhere else
i wish i was different
i wish i was pretty
i wish i was loving
i wish i was talented
i wish i could sing better
i wish i could write music
i wish i wasn't invisible
i wish i wish i wish

Saturday, December 25, 2010

have a wonderful day

merry christmas to those who celebrate it.

whats happening

you're in & out of my mind
train wreck (me)

this cant be right
i cant be right

i just want to

shut the world out

Tuesday, December 21, 2010


get up
so high
im up
feeling alive
i can touch the sky
and kiss the stars

tick tock

the thought of being hurt
by the same thing
all over again
im not afraid of trying it again
but i dont want to get hurt
i dont want to get hurt
in recovery
in confusion
in the allusion
in constellations


Monday, December 20, 2010

where'd you go?

most of us are mislead
and uninformed about whats happening or whats going to happen
put in the sense that we are all
like alice
alice in wonderland
skinny loves and thoughts
skinny ankles and wrists
with 100 stories to tell
but no where to go
you make your self to be the person you accept
but we still manage to never figure out
who we are
like a fractured bone not broken
a twisted painting but perfectly painted
a paper cut that cuts deep but manages to stay sweet

so imperfect
so demented
so sore
yet so clean

just hang

you interlope in all aspects of every corner of my thoughts and mind
every inch of my soul
in constant motion
i over think
the simple things
you're so sweet
but you complex me
and my thoughts and my already tangled mind
i hang from you
like a loose thin thread
one in which you do not see
and somehow that completes me

Thursday, December 16, 2010

tomorrows a new day

wait for the skies to change
and breathe it in

Wednesday, December 15, 2010



i think i can make it without you
i think i can

it was in you

"& when i meet you, it felt like everything fell into place. it was a challenge, it was a ride, it was hard, but i found you
& i found my self to"


age is just a number

you're wise
beyond your years

but i dont care
i dont care
i dont care


that soul
the one that i have spend
all my time searching for

that non-existing soul

a fairytale

in my head
every story starts with a
Once Upon A Time

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Friday, December 10, 2010

it all happened so fast

& when i lost you
i didn't really know i would lose myself to


Be Somebody - KOL

because it reminds me of the rush
and the ride to no where


& when she sings and when she talks
its as if
i can hear her whisper them to my soul

my bones shiver
they s h i v e r
she doesn't have a clue
so i'll just sing her a song or maybe two


i want to i n s p i r e people

Thursday, December 9, 2010

my soul turns purple when i am with you

dark lies

i dont know what im doing or who im going to be
but i know that i want to be anywhere but here
and i know i dont want to be this.

take me to a place where everything is light & everyday the skies are different
get me out of here
so i can show the right people the side of me no one here sees

dare me

baby girl

you're way to young
to feel & be
this e m p t y

(thats all he said)

mama once told me to:

feels so wrong