Sunday, October 7, 2012

im sure you remember

i believe in equality
but i dont believe in you


im here to stay

it kills me
you werent mine
nor will you ever be

you spend all these minutes
on her
like she put the stars in the sky
when all she does it take them all
and keep them with her

you dont get it
do  you?
your weakness
is killing me

i gave it all
i gave you all
she gave you a kiss
and a sweet word
and you gave her the world
and a love bite

it kills me
it kills me to see that you wouldn't go that extra mile for me 

im just as weak but im not as blind.

Saturday, August 11, 2012

the bittersweet
& the inbetween
open more than just your heart
spill out your(thoughts)
sing to me
with me
linger around my soul
and i feel your breaths all around my torso
ill hold you forever

i dont know what more
just open up
to me
with me
youll be all mine
and ill be all yours

Monday, August 6, 2012

you cant feel this way forever

whatever this is

whatever i think this is

whatever we thought this was
hasn't turned out,
pieces by pieces
we're falling
d o w n

i think i found something,
i have nothing left
i loved you the most
you (most)

in the clouds i'm high up, with myself
you cant touch me
dont touch me
piece by piece
the ripple when the pebble hits the water, the white tips
seducing my feet
i can hear it
you said you never loved me
& i know i never will
head in the sea
i dont think there's ever going to be
a you
& me..

Thursday, July 12, 2012


open me up
let me sing for you
all thats left of me

forever maybe
i lied when i said never
i dont get whats wrong with the picture

let me sing where theres an echo
let me listen
soul thirst
i need you

take as long as you like

Friday, June 8, 2012

you changed everything

rootless tree - damien rice 

its nothing to you and if you hate me, then hate me so good that you can let me out 

Sunday, June 3, 2012

i dare you not to4get me

you  are

i want this

& ill run
& ill sacrifice
& when i tell you ill try
i mean it

i will
& ill fight
& ill cry
& ill fall
& when i tell you i cant
i hope you'll understand

ill try
& ill sacrifice
with you ill take tiny steps
but for you ill take leaps
holding your hand

& ill r u n
breaking through
running dry

this is me
for you
i gave you me
i gave you myself
& more

then you took me away
& for that ill sacrifice
blood for blood

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

simply: i just want you

so self-destructive
im not good
im not healthy
for you

for myself

Sunday, March 18, 2012

recognize me

home - daughter

burnt out flames should never re-ignite

soul kiss

break my addictions
& be my cigarette
roll it up
kill it off
take it away
with every grip
i grow more obsessed

(my valium)
every sound & reverb
every raw detail your voice projects
into me
out of lust
i want to refine you in white
maybe pink
and pop you like a pill
take you when i'm down
or on magic hill

so tell me, about myself.

the girl who visions ripping her self to pieces at a sight of a mirror
the girl who will die of insecurity
the girl sitting next to you
the girl who's diagnosed & patiently waiting for a cure
the girl by the phone
the sister that tries to create a satisfying impression
the daughter that hides depression
the student that struggles
the poet that writes about her pain
the teenager thats bottling up her tears
the stranger that walks by, with suicide crossing her mind
the one who is alone
the person living in shame
the one who's only asking for someone
to care.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

i can't

but i fell in love
with the wrong person

at the wrong time
& as he left
he took it
he forgot to leave my heart behind

Friday, February 10, 2012

its friday

heavy dose of nicotine - pain killers - empty journals


where we go
lips interlocking
stains, black orchid stains
with every touch
soft movements across
his flesh
with every physical contact
like adrenaline, creeping in my veins
who knows?

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

remember this, jan17

"Reserved Parking
Thank You"

thats why i kissed you

but with you
i feel nothing+alive
at the same time.


this is it
tip toes
on grave yards

flesh on fire
lips lit from matches
a walking sin
from a dark place

ill let you touch my skin
ill let you break my bones

Sunday, January 15, 2012

so beautiful
so ethereal

the ride&stuff

touching your hands

be good to me
i think this means

my only comfort zone; gone.

blood is just red body fluid
it doesn't mean a thing to me
it never meant a thing to me
& kinship is just a word.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

but no, wait.

take her away

here's the water
take it
cold as ice
looking down
your sinful hands
running through her insides

she speaks softly to my ears
expressions & her dull eyes
he was
feeling me
merging every inch of desire
tickles in my soul
what more could i ask for
what more could she need
what more could she want
wash it away
wash it all away
the ice between his nails
and the water thats sliding down
his finger tips
slowly cleansing

Thursday, January 5, 2012

but i did it all for your honor.

i dont remember

it was all hazy
i haven't felt so vulnerable
take it all away

pass me the phone

the bottle is done
my insides are intoxicated
your sharp canines
touching my lace
i cant do this anymore
i want you
i kept saying
i want you
everything was escalating
blowing the fuse
sensor things
sensor everything

this is all wrong
your eyes are too fragile

ill tell you
ill tell you how you crept through my spine
ill tell you about the grip
ill tell you about how i can hear your blood, run down my fingers.
the sounds of the bass
and the sound of you saying my name
my endless sighs
pitch black

i wake up, on your roof
it was cold in december
now i have you
&your body
&the candles
&the music
this is my trip
this is me and you
this is us.

cornered bruise

it was
ripping through my skin
slowly devouring my bones
& opening up every dry crease on my lips

you're digging in
its bleeding down
salt my wounds
& no one was there
& no one could hear

my screams
my raging screams
please stop the pain
lay me down in your
warm arms
& i'll whisper
please stop

whatever it takes

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

wrapped in lights
playing with stars

because maybe if i shine
you'll notice me