Sunday, January 31, 2010

Friday, January 29, 2010

call 911

identity theft

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

here is some advice

be yourself. 
be you. 
& people will love you as you are. 
no need to follow the hype. 
just be yourself, for once. 

(stop trying to be someone you're not)

Sunday, January 24, 2010

movement, move me.

sunday monday tuesday wednesday

you are the person that i feel most comfortable with. 

(ihopeyoureadthis & know im talking about you)

because it rained

if only you meet me before today

i wouldn't have let you go. 
I wont let go. 
I miss the old you, but the new you isn't so bad. 
You make me feel partially complete. 
Your presence & vibe was empowering. 
It still is. 
Sit with me, and lets talk about  life. 
Sit with me, and lets sing.
Sit with me, and lets draw. 
Be my friend. 
My guide 
My shade of purple. 

[your the reason why i put pride in my art]

Saturday, January 23, 2010

i needed your help.

time for myself

11:56pm- insecureities kick in 
11:58pm- cold, cold. 
4:43pm- happy, smiles. 
4:45pm- simple, aesthetics being discovered. 
4:50pm- sleepy, txting. 
5:06pm- very very sleepy.
8:20pm- lost.
8:25pm- thinking of him, his beauty & his eyes.
9:09pm- thinking about stupid things that will never happen.
10:55pm- painting. 
5:02pm- confident
10:36- content.
10:26- relieved. 
8:42pm- sorry.
9:52pm- sleepy, talked to you. happy.
2:11pm: sleepy, feeling fat. 
12:58pm-loved, sleepy.
4:15pm- desire.
4:23pm- connected.
4:25pm- alone. 
4:45- silence.

Friday, January 22, 2010

pretty glitter faces


call up an old friend. 
catch up with everything. 
just call up a close friend, just because you can. 
& just because you care. 

Monday, January 18, 2010

"The loneliness of my independence sinks deep into my blood. It rushes through my veins with a fierce, pulsing refrain: You are alone, it whispers, you are all alone."

Friday, January 15, 2010

take a break, just breathe.

you can have it.

dont you hate it when you hear something you don't want to hear?
but you have to hear it, because you need to know. 
because you have to know. 
& when you hear it, you wished you'd never heard it, but you had to hear it. 

when i heard it. 
i lost it inside, i tried to hold it back while she was there but when she left i fell & broke down into tears. 
it must be something big, if thats what your thinking.  
But its not something big at all. 
to you maybe. 
but to me it was my pride, my happiness. something that i called my own, something that i was proud of having & in the end i knew that it wasn't just mine, it was hers too. 
& you know she doesn't deserve it, she doesn't know how to handle it. 
it hurts more, because i know how to and i know what to do. 
but that person is just not going too, that person is going to act, and put on a show. 
that one thing, was mine. 
i was real. 

that thing was my friend. 

[selfish thoughts]

no pulse?

my heart.
it beats, and beats.
all this time i thought that the only reason it does, is because of you.
you make it race, you make it slow down.
but it doesnt beat for you, my heart is not for you.
false love. love one big allusion.
i dont need your love
& if thats what you are doing, if thats love.
then i dont want to be in love

my heart deserves someone else.
my heart beats dont only revolve around you.

Monday, January 11, 2010

i want to move from my room, to a stage.

" to me new york was a jackson pollock, sipping vodka & dripping paint over a raw canvas " 

Friday, January 8, 2010

only asking for love.

if  there is no love from their family 
and no love from their friends 
how can someone love their selves? 

i guess not this time, not today. 
some other day.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

ill always wear the key.

its just a part of me. 


i dont know what this feeling is, i really dont know how i feel. 

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

strawberry fields ?

i waited, for you, ended up singing alone.

[your a beautiful mess]

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

oh keygiveer

i need you right now, just as much as i need the rain. 
make my day or fill me with pain. 
just make me feel 
your presence is missing. 
you are missing 
i am missing 
do you miss me?
(oh the pleasure that would bring to me) 
because i need just a little rain, i need the rain i want the rain. 
i love the rain just as much as i love you. 

didnt i see you

[whenyouthoughtyou'dnever stand out]

Sunday, January 3, 2010

until then your mine.

i know that someday i will loose it 
& i will cry and i wouldn't know why. 

Friday, January 1, 2010


lets all wave to the new year.